I have been going through a lot these past couple of months. I don't want to get in to too much detail because things are still crazy for me right now BUT I do have to say that the one thing that has kept me going and that keeps a smile on my face is Taitym. I still have her sleep with me and one of the reasons is that every morning when I wake up I love looking over and seeing her just smile at me and reach for me to pick her up. I love coming home from work and seeing how excited she gets to see me. She is such a girly girl (just like her mom) and loves putting my makeup brushes on her face while I am putting my makeup on. She LOVES wearing bows and hats (she always has a hat or bow in her hair) and she smiles at herself in the mirror every time she sees that she has one on. I love that I can act crazy and sing and dance in front of her and I am sure all she is thinking is "my mom is a crazy dancer and she defiantly can't sing but she makes me laugh so keep on going." I can't imagine my life without Taitym. I think about her all day every day. I love going to the mall and buying her stuff. It use to be all about me but now I have someone else to look after and I couldn't be more happy about it. I love always having a little buddy to run around town with, to eat lunch at home with and have dinner dates with. She is now eating solids so when I make dinner she just has bites of whatever I am having and it's so much fun to spend my nights with her. We have so much fun being together, just us two. I wish time would just stop, she gets bigger and bigger every day and I just want her to stay little so I can snuggle her and have her love on me forever.
Taitym, I know you can't read this yet but I hope you know you are my world, you are my everything. I have never been so happy in my entire life and I love you more than I can put into word! LOVE YOU... MOMMY!!!
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